a little too not over you

Assalamualaikum......

i don't know what i feel right now....
do i still have a crush on you?
i'm so silly...
what was i thinking when i added you as my friend in fb?
must be so desperate....
i want to forget you......
but i just can't..
when i online...
when i notice that u are also online
my heart skips a beat..
damn...
it's been four years of pain..
i had a crush on u....
but u never know bout me..ever..
we really never have a talk before..
u always..  walk away..
since form three..
i always been so crazy bout you..
like an idiot..i know..
i really want to forget bout u...
seriously, i thought if i never see u again..
this feeling will disappear..
but it won't!!
and now i'm suffering lol...
they said that this is not a crush anymore..
i'm in love......damn damn damn
but really i don't want to couple with u larh...
just thought that we could be friend..
is that really hard?
hmm, when i thought about this again..
i'm so glad that u ignore me..
coz dude, u ain't for me larh...
i'll find someone better..not now..
i just know that my mr right is somewhere out there...
hmm..he'll find me....
let's just wait for the perfect moment, shall we?
and as for u ,mr rima...
tata...and please get loss from my life will ya?
i'm actually so bored of u..
haih...hope that i can forget u completely..
hmm..good woman for a a good man right?
so..yeah..hm....
i think i just lost a little bit of my insanity....
.but watever rima...
u wll always be my first crush..
but not my soulmate i think...
good...just good...
hukhuk..i'm so loss

p/s: entry nih dibuat hanya utk melepaskan perasaan terpendam.....agak geli sikit bunyi die..tapi nak buat cam mana? aku tengah berlatih nak tulis bi balik..aku dah lupa, grammar tunggang terbalik...adess..sabar je la...
rima? ok...aku x de pape perasaan kat die...sikit je...tapi dalam proses nak lupakan laa..ahahaha...
tau la...jangan kata aku angau, gedik, miang, gatal...aku pun pompuan...better je aku pendam daripada luahkan perasaan aku kat dia..kan kan?lagipun, tak nak...aku mmg x tak pikir pasal die....adess...belajar la dulu....hehe...think he's not the one for me....kot... ntah laa...hm kbai
wassalam....